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My life continue...

2012-02-11T09:49:00.000-08:00

Okey guys here are the continuation of my life and may I remind all of you that starting from now, I will only be able to update this blog more or less once a week depend on how tired and horny I'm... muahahaha... Just kidding!!!... I will try my best to update it once a week or if am in a good mood or feeling the love of the world I'll update it twice...

Alright, first thing first... Am back in school y'all!!!... Time to start the engine n get busy... Hurmmm... I bet u guys know that am looking forward for this moment to happen cause am keep bitching bout it for the last three weeks aite??... However, to be honest with you guys, I felt like there is something wrong with this semester... I don't know why and what is the problem, but I can tell you that there ain't anything happening according to my plan...

But the saddest thing ever is my relationship with my friends become colder than ever... I have this feeling like they are only using me so that they can ride in my car... Each and everyday the distance between me and my friends is further and more further... This crap scared the hell out of me... I almost don't know them anymore... Every time I meet up with them the situation is awkward... and I know it very well that I shouldn't feel this way... Owh and there is a new addition to our group of friend... A friend of mine bring in his boyfriend... I don't want to make an early judgement about him but what I can say is that I don't really feel comfortable being around him but I can't say it out loud to my friend cause I know that it will hurt him... and I don't to add a pinch of hatred in this already awkward relationship of ours... Am not saying that I hate my friend new bf (I called it new tough am pretty sure that he will move on with somebody else very soon) it is just that am not comfortable when he tried to tell me everything and act like he knows everything in this world!!! and I know that there are million of people who loves to act like they know everything out there but I believe all these people should get a grip and realize that we're human and no one know everything... Only GOD does... And somehow my heart tells me that he is a hypocrite cause he always do all these chores tho my friend told me that he never did any chores at home... Seriously guys I HATE HYPOCRITE!!!...

Enough with my friendship drama!!! lets talk a little bit about studies... OMG!!! this semester will be a semester full with depression and stress for me cause there are so many things to do already... Too many assignments and strict lecturers that gonna teach me... Majority of the lecturers already informed me that they need at least 20 pages of assignment before they can let me pass the subject!!! Damn frustrating... I don't wanna talk about studies anymore, it's giving me a headache...

The first three days of my new semester, am spending it at my friend condominium... She is an ICT lecturer at foundation studies in my uni... I helped her to unpack her things... I had fun doing it especially when I can swim and go to gym every evening... Besides, she pay for my food and let me sleep in a comfy bedroom... So I think why not??!!... HuHuHu...

The first exciting news that I got all this week is that am going for an interview tomorrow at Cambridge English For Life... Am crossing my fingers so that I can get the job... Am applying to be the tutor there since my little sister is one of the student at the tuition centre... I got to tell you that am not so nervous about the interview but what am nervous about is that I might be asked to do a moot teaching tomorrow... All the negatives questions keep playing in my mind... What if they don't like the way I teach??... or How can I show them my enthusiastic face while deep inside of me am nervous to HELL!!!... Wish me luck guys!!! I really hope that I get the job... It is early morning already, I should get some sleep to make sure am doing great for tomorrow interview... Owh before I forget, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to all the BITCHES, SLUTS and WHORE out there who got the Mr. or Mrs. RIGHT by ur side tho some of you might not last long... Muahahaha!!! Till then... So long luvlies!!!

MENTOR 6 and ONAIR audition!!!

2012-02-02T19:41:00.000-08:00

Okie guys this is a shout out to all the talented people out there... Go and chase your dream people!!! If you have Celine Dion or Christina Aguilera voice, why not?? It is so worth it to give it a shot rite??? U definitely have nothing to loose... Or if you think that you can be the next Oprah Winfrey or Ryan Seacrest... try ONAIR... It is a reality TV programme by Astro to look for the next best presenter...

Okie Dokie for the Mentor 6, here are all the details that you need to know BEFORE you go for an audition... I remind you BEFORE!!!...

Place: Sri Pentas TV3
Time: 10am - 5pm
Date: Ogy (4th Feb), Faizal Tahir (5th Feb), Ramlah Ram (11th Feb), Ferhad (12th Feb), Ella (18th Feb) and Adam (19 Feb)

As for Sabah and Sarawak

13th January: Hotel Promenade, Tawau, Sabah
15th January: Hotel Promenade, Kota Kinabalu, Sabah
20th January: Hotel Imperial, Miri, Sarawak
22th January: Hotel Merdeka Palace, Kuching, Sarawak

Now for the ONAIR audition, only 14 contestants will be chosen consists of 7 men and 7 women through the audition all around the country. They will teach and been given a chance to explore all the hosting genre. Including News, Magazine and Entertainment. The winner will received 3 years contract with Astro and other prizes.

Now let us look at the location for the audition.

1. Pulau Pinang Red Box Karaoke, Gurney Plaza (14th & 15th Jan)
2. Johor Bahru The Puteri Pacific, Johor Bahru (21st & 22nd Jan)
3. Sarawak Merdeka Palace, Kuching (28th & 29th Jan)
4. Pusat Penyiaran Asia Astro, Bukit Jalil (4th & 5th Feb)

Here are a few requirements that you need to know before you go to the audition...

Age: 18-30 years old
Languages: Malay and English with great personality
Things that need to bring: RESUME, copies of IC, 4R picture...

Alright these are all the thing that I can tell you... If you're interested and talented I would love to wish you good luck!!! You might see me in one of the audition... Huhuhu... Still considering whether I should go or not cause the date is not suitable for me... But I wished I can join ONAIR audition... It has been my dream to actually work as a TV and Radio presenter...

Counting days!!!

2012-02-01T09:22:00.000-08:00

Okie it is official that am stupid... Frustrating... Remember I talked about my result??... I only managed to get 3.27... OMG!! It is so unexpected and it almost brought me into tears... I expect more that what I got... There are 2 subjects which I thought I will get an A's since am the student with the highest carry marks but it turn out that I only managed to get ONLY B+ and B for those subjects... I tried so hard to forget about all of this stupid result but I can't am still thinking bout it... Maybe I should go and recheck my result which will cause me around RM 50 per paper... So basically RM 100 for both paper... Still thinking bout it... Which one is more important... Good Result or Money??... In most cases I would say money but I might exclude this one from my normal case scenario...

But you know what is more scary than waiting for your result??... It is to tell your mum about it!!!... My mum will definitely go ballistic if she know about it... Telling her will be like Paris Hilton having her dumbness moment that make her take a gun and shot her ownself... So am definitely nervous to tell her bout it... Am definitely praying that she will be OK with it!!!... Pray for me people!!! Pray for me!!...

However, OK this already feel like a school essay (using however)... Muahahaha... Am cant wait to start new semester guys... The new semester will start on 8th Feb 2012... This semester am planning to go nerd... With my short to almost bald hair... gonna buy a big glasses, wear a lot more cardigan with shirt and maybe khakis to get the vibe of embracing the nerdy-ness in me... Every semester I will go with one character and try to play the character as good as possible but at the same time being fashionable (this is a must)... Come on!! This is the only time for me to have fun... While am still studying cause I don't think my workplace in the future will allow me to wear anything that I want unless I develop my own business... Can't wait to be nerdy... I already got the bag and the shoe... I just need a big glasses... I better start looking for it now... till next time... ADIOS!!... :)

Nervous and AJL!!!

2012-01-30T05:38:00.000-08:00

Owh God am so scared to hell since tomorrow is gonna be the result day!! Seriously I don't think that am gonna make it for one of the subject... Tho it is only contribute 0.5 GPA but am still scared to hell cause I don't want my education loan to be cancelled just because of that... I thought it is gonna be today actually, I mean the result but when my frenz told me that it is tomorrow I gotta say that it makes me more nervous cause another day of suffer will come ahead and u know it well that I hate to suffer!!!

Alright here is my short review about Anugerah Juara Lau (AJL) that is happening yesterday... To those who don't know AJL is basically like the biggest award for all the musician in our country to choose the best song of the year... Yup, it is a yearly show... Huhuhuhu... Or in other word it is a Grammy award for Malaysian musician except for the singer need to sing live and the judgement will be done based on their performance that day...

So enough with the babbling... Okay honestly, I hate Hafiz with his song Awan Nano, I don't get the song and it is such an ear sore... I don't know why the hell he won the best song of the year... Not to mention his performance yesterday is so freaking cheap man... U don't have to actually put on a t-shirt and a track suit to show that you are poor... For me it is cliché and annoying... The teary drama while performing is so 10 million years ago... Come on man this is 2012!! Who do that...

I actually hoping for Beribu Sesalan by the 3 Diva, Yuna with her song Penakut or at least Kisah Hati by Alia to win the award... Except for Beribu Sesalan as the 1st runner up and Kisah Hati as the best performances none of the other songs deserve the award that they won... Tho I do admit that Beribe Sesalan performances is a little bit boring cause the stage is too empty for me... They should have put the dancer or something on the stage...

Talking about the vocal of the singers as a whole, I can say that they tried their best but I know and am so sure that they can actually do better than what they did... I expect Jaclyn Victor to win the vocal but once again my hope is crushed by the stupid Hafiz... But I got to admit that Hafiz vocal is also one of the best yesterday...

But one thing that am so relief about is that Najwa Latif with her song Cinta Muka Buku or translated as Facebook Love... Such an immature and stupid song I've ever heard in my whole life and I truly believe that only little children obsess with the song...

After all it is a good show... I love the tribute to Sudirman... One of the greatest entertainer in our country... If you're Malaysian and never heard about Sudirman you're definitely an imbecile... Muahahaha!!!.... I almost cried listening to the Salam Terakhir song... Okie I guess that is all for now... my hand started to hurt and my lappy battery is already low... Until my next post... Love you guys... take care... Wear seat belt if you're driving... HAHAHAHA!!!... :)

My soul of life!!

2012-01-28T11:40:00.000-08:00

Today I'm happy...

Yesterday there was full of joy...

The other day I was blessed...

It has been more than a month now...

God give me another angel in my life...

She is just an angel...

I never know that she is...

Until I heard, she laugh...

The way she laugh is just perfection...

Full of joy and giggle just like a baby...

I still remember that moment...

The first time I met her...

I thought that she is a hater...

The way she stared, the way she glance...

Just killing the love inside of me...

But I make a mistake...

I admit it...

She is just breath taking...

Once you start to know her...

Believe me it is hard not to love her...

Her cute face is one in a million...

Her attitude never failed to make me smile...

Her confidence always creates jokes...

Her smiles always light up the room...

Her words comforts me...

She is still a kid...

Fragile, innocent and sweet...

Always make me feel like protecting her...

From the danger of my own spesies...

Or any violent of the world...

Some people say that I'm over protective..

But I'm truthfully think I'm not...

Cause people rarely understand...

How important she is to me...

Unless I tell them that she is the soul of my life...

I can't afford to have her...

I know that she deserve a better keeper...

And simply because she have the right to live happily...

But I'm scared to let her free...

Because she is now apart of me...

I don't know what to do...

I don't have any plan...

But one thing for sure, I will loose her in the future...

Until she find her knight and shining armour...

Just let me take a good care of her...

have fun?? yeah right...

2012-01-28T11:11:00.000-08:00

owhkie people maybe it is quiet late to talk about yesterday, but why do i need to give a damn rite??.... So I slept at 4 in the morning n it really piss me off cause the next day I really have to wake up early... 4 hours of sleep really not enough for me... So I woke around 8 in the morning n have to drive my little sister all the way to Shah Alam town to sent her to the tuition center...

I tried so hard to open my eyes, n the worst thing was my mum keep wanting to chat with me for 2 hours long while am in the middle of surviving my sleepy day... Then we went back home I have to start cooking lunch... I cooked Nasi Ayam together with my mum... Right, "Family Bonding" time when I don't need it at all...

The rest of the day I still can't close my eyes so I go online and watching TV's... way to pass time... At night I missed smoking so much so I decided o go to my cousin house where I can almost feel free to do anything I want... I smoke, gossiping about our family crisis... Owh u really don't want me to start on this because it a very long story... It even take ages to finish... There are a lot of things happen lately... DRAMASSSSS ALERT!!!.... Now at this hour my cousin already went to bed n am stuck again in front of the TV n this stupid lappy... I started to think that am an insomniac... Which is not a good thing!!! cause I don't want to have my wrinkle at this early age... Owh scary cause I have to start consider about having a botox injection or sumthing while the fact is am broke rite now... Well not literally acually, it is only me... My mum is no way closer to MC Hammer broke people!!!... No worries!!! Okie now am kinda tired of typing so am going to sign off for now guys!!! Till later... Ciao!! Adios!! Arrivederci!!... :)

::HaPPy::

2012-01-26T08:04:00.000-08:00

Yeay at last am one freaking happy boy... Now the internet connection in my house is good and most importantly I can get connected to my FB and Youtube... Seriously am fucking damn happy that if u can see my face right now u will definitely see my yellow-ish teeth... Muahahaha...

Now I can get connected and chat with my frenz am feeling like post sumthing on each of my frenz wall... But who am I lying with my laziness it will never in a million years to happen...

Am trying to finish the novel that I told u guys before, Rite now am only on the chapter twelve... So far the storyline is damn good... It almost like watching a drama... Am eager to continue my reading cause I wanna know what happen next... Cecelia really know how to attract readers attention...

Let me tell y'all a bit about the storyline... So basically the story is about this girl, name Lucy, she is basically try to start her new life cause she just broke up with her long te boyfriend who happen to be a TV personality... But somewhere along her life journey, she can't actually cope with her new life and her family, write a letter to a company which their main business is to do what we called as "LIFE INTERVENTION"... Hopefully, U heard about it before... Anyway to cut the story short, she is being forced to g to the company and meet with her LIFE... which happen to be a handsome young man... There are a lot more dramaSSS that is going on in this novel... The one that happen in her family, office even in her love life... It is truely a great novel... U guys should buy this novel... Seriously, it is totally worth it!!!....

Apart from that, I can't wait to color my little sister hair tomorrow... I bought the hair colorant just now... Just wait for a suitable time to apply it... Hopefully tomorrow... My lil sis is going brunette tomorrow... Anyway I bought REVLON COLOR SILK and the color is light brown... Hopefully it will look great on her... Owh U know me, am a hair color freak... I changed my hair color almost every 2 months from red to blond to brunette... I've tried almost every color but the one that I love the most is Light Golden Brown... I rarely do it at home cause I can't take the risk of it to look bad cause am colorit myself... Always2 go to salon but since this time around I'm gonna do it on my little sister hair so I decided to do it by my own... It is nice U know to have that feeling being a hair dresser once in a while... huhuhu... I guess this is all for now... Until then... SO LOOOOOOOOOONG!!! :p

Piss Off!!

2012-01-25T03:09:00.000-08:00

Alright people, I'm really piss off again... I know that some of you might get enough of my piss off story again but I just gotta say this... A few weeks back I had problem with my internet connection but this time around when the connection is definitely fine, I got a big problem to open my facebook and other social networking sites... I don't know why but somehow every time I try to log into my facebook, this some sort of 'Block Domain' sites keep coming up... I don't know what to do... Anyone can actually give me the solution to this problem??...

Owh anyway I cooked again today after about 5 months of enjoying myself of dining in a restaurant or somebody else cooked for me... I had fun in the kitchen... It remind me to all the fun that I miss all this long... I cooked 'lemak tempoyak usus and rebung', to those who don't know it is actually a malay dishes that is yellow in color and quiet spicy too... Besides this fantastic dish, I guess cause I never eat usus before... muahahaha... I also cooked 'Kubis Goreng' and 'Telur Sambal'...

I'm actually counting the day for me to go back to my uni and have my happy life back... It has been about 2 weeks now am staying at home doing nothing, I have another week to go... But the nervous part of all is my last semester result... Eventually it will come out next week which am so nervous about and am hoping that my pointer will exceed 3.5 this time cause my mum promise me an iPad or samsung galaxy tab for it...

Next am thinking to color my little sister hair since I can't color mine... Am bald now remember??... Am thinking of dark blond or maybe brunette with the mixture of red-ish in it or maybe burgundy... Can't make my mind up yet... But am definitely gonna do it...

Owh one more thing, I don't know why but recently I can't eat so much seafood... It cause my feet to get hurt... I pray to God that it is not one of those major diseases... I don't wanna say what it is... You can guess it urself... U know, those disease that you cannot eat this and that cause ur uric acid is too high... My dad got it so my mum told me to better be careful and start to watch my daily diet... Hurm... another problem... hope can get through it this time...

At last... time to re-connect...

2012-01-21T03:25:00.000-08:00

Bullshit!!! Alright guys no worries am not mad at anybody here just a way for me to thanks my internet connection in my home sweet home that never ever stable... its okie for the first 2 seconds and then it started to go wrong again!!! UURRGGHH!!!

Anyway am currently in Port Dickson... trying to have the best of time with my family!! Dummies alert!!... Yup a family vaca... U might think that am a lame person rite now!! As much as I try to avoid the word lame in my life but this time I have to admit!! Yup am a little bit lame when it come to holiday season... It almost like am lost all my socialite status at once... No VIPs passes to the night club... no hangging out with friends... no nothing...

Anyway just to tell u guys, last 2 days I went to KRU studios... am "escorting" my friend for an interview as the assistant producer... am not really sure if escorting is the right word to be used here... but who cares right??... I don't give a damn... and am freaking sure that u shouldn't too... It was a fun day for me... cause it is that moment where you feel relief and u suddenly feel like u can now gasping for air cause u can feel that moment again... where u chat, laugh, hang out, n chill with ur friends after a few days of sleeping, eating, watching tv's n do all the chores or in a simple word NO LIFE AT ALL!!... U should see my face it is almost look like a kid got his MCD's happy meal... That happy face with a big smile on it...

Okie let me tell you a little bit about my journey yesterday, on my way to PD... I was force by my mum to chat with my dad which i got to tell you it happens really once i a zillion years... It is not that I don't wanna talk to him, it is just that with no reason I stopped talking to him since I am 13... n to tell you honestly, i got no common interest to even start the conversation with... Owh am forgot to tell you that my mum forced me to open my mouth and have a "friendly" chat with my dad to avoid my dad from sleeping cause he is the one who is driving n he will never ever let me drive a car if he is in it... He just don't trust me that much!!!... Okie... moving on... after a half an hour of silence at last we found our common ground... N the topic is really2 interesting... Don't believe me??... We ACTUALLY talked ABOUT "dogs".... Can u believe that??... Dogs... hahahah...

Anyway gotta go for now... gotta pray before my mum make any noise... see ya later!!... :P

Still alive!!!

2012-01-16T23:52:00.000-08:00

It has been a few hours since the last time I posted something on this page... Am still on my couch, doing nothing, and watching tv... Yup... my life suck!!! still doing nothing... however can't wait for the weekends to come cause am going to a beach yaw!!... Am leaving probably on friday... cant recall what my mum told me... it is her plan anyway...

Woot2!! Bitches on the beach... huhuhu... anyway my macaroni cheese turns out good... The macaroni is so soft, and the cheese melt in my mouth... Urghh!!! love that feeling... and then a glass of fresh grape juice is just so refreshing!!!

For tonite am going to try my best to eat less and if possible only eat steamed fish with just a bit of rice of maybe a bowl of noodle soup... Still on my diet plan people!!... yeehaa!!!...

Owh I want to smoke so much but it seems like I have to distract myself as much as possible not to thinking bout it since am at my home sweet home where the law of no smoking somehow still be used... Until then... Ciao!!!

SEX!!

2012-01-16T20:59:00.001-08:00

Let me tell u guys sumthing about it... urgh!!! u know when u imagine that it will be great, sexy, sensual n everything??... I mean before u did it... the reality is not that fun yaw!!!

Believe me, especially to all the first timers, that it will be awkward as hell!!! U don't know what to do, how to do it, plus u're nervous and ur adrenalin level start to pumping up... all these add together u practically feeling like u'll be dead in a few moment... Huhuhu...

Owh don't let me start on the feeling of regret later on... U'll feel like fuck what have I done... am not suppose to do this!!!... U'll sleep with the feeling of regret and everything...

However, there are one thing that I don't really get about doing it is that u keep want for more... Just do it for twice, believe me u'll feel like u can't stop anymore... talking from experience MUCH!!... huhuhu...

Remember I talked about the things that I don't proud of... This is one of them yaw!!!... Done it for many times now but still ain't understand the significant of it...

But MAYBE... just MAYBE... if u're doing it with ur love fun it will give u different meaning to it... so what am trying to say over here is that until that day... until u find someone special in ur life,DON'T DO IT!!... yes am WARNING u guys especially all the VIRGIN out there... Be proud that you're preserving things that proven not so many people can keep for long... I want u guys to know that am talking from the bottom of my heart now and starting from now on am never gonna hide anything again from u guys... I will tell all the truth whether it is for better or for worse...

Ciao... Adios... Arrivederci for now... :P

OMG!!! please am frakin damn bored!!!

2012-01-16T20:38:00.000-08:00

OK... it is the starting of my three weeks boring adventures... seriously freaking damn bored that I can write the whole day on this page... This upcoming three weeks for me means no party, no smoking n no to everything...

Start to miss my college life and friends now... Owh anyway just to tell u guys that yesterday I went bald... The first time ever... n to tell u guys that at first it is kinda scary, feeling a little bit nervous but after a few minutes my head being completely shaved am started to like it...

It really enhanced my features... loving it yaw!!! But let me tell you one thing about myself I can rock anything and any look... throw any styles at me am gonna rock it baby!!! that is how high my confident level is... muahahaha!!!

WOW!! talking to u guys really give me ideas what to do for my three weeks holiday... Alright first thing first, DING!! DING!! DING!!... am gonna put some weight... lets try to diet... how bout that!!!

secondly, am gonna grow some more hair on my bald head!!! of course I dont wanna look bald registering myself next semester... no matter how much am loving it, it is some sort of out of fashion...

Thirdly, let me try to finish the novel that I bought like a month ago... I haven't read anything yet since am too focus on my final examination... The novel is a new one from Cecelia Ahern, it is called the time of my life... Lets try to read it tonite aite? before am gonna sleep... dont worry guys am gonna tewll u guys more bout the novel later on k!!!...

For now am feeling so lazy so lets just watch TV and eat a SMALL!! might I remind u guys a SMALL bowl of macaroni cheese... :)

2 years have past!!!

2012-01-15T19:36:00.000-08:00

Hello people it has been more than a year now and my life have change a lot... But I guess this is why it called life... Take 2 minutes to stop doing everything and look all around you, everything will change and move so quickly...

Along with all my one year changes, there are millions of it that I'm not proud of. I'm a SINFUL SLUT! now... looking at all my friends, most of them already getting married, building up family, working with big pay check and moving forward to become a better person whereas I'm still stuck here in this own world of mine studying and learning more about life each day!!!...

To tell you the truth I have thousands of people come and go in my life and I miss all of them... tho some of them end up their relationship badly with me but only one thing strike in my mind every time i missed them is that they you to loved me and they used to bring colors to my life...

There are times that I'm scared with my lifestyles now... It is too bad to be considered as a normal being life... I'm not a GOODY2 BITCH anymore... I had so much fun but not in a good way... I don't know where my life is heading to but I pray to God that it will lead me to a good place... Lets wait and see... But 1 thing for sure, I never ever regret all this SINFUL THINGS! I have done cause it teaches me everything in life... that LIFE is NOT as EASY as you thought and in all the beautiful colors of life there are BLACK that is look interesting and unique but too DARK that it can erase all the other colors!!!

Kisah Ramadhan Al-Mubarak

2010-08-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum... Alhamdulillah tahun nih akhirnya dapat juga aku menjengah ke bulan yang penuh keberkatan dan dipenuhi dengan rahmat dari Tuhan yang maha Esa iaitu bulan Ramadham Al-Mubarak...

Terima kasih ya Allah kerana memberi ku satu lagi kesempatan untuk berpuasa dan beribadah kepada Mu pada tahun ini walaupun jauh di sudut hatiku ini aku tahu bahawa aku adalah seorang insan yang banyak berdosa kepada Mu... Selalu lalai terhadap diri Mu... Cuma satu pintaku ya Allah agar sejauh mana pun kesalahan dan kesilapan ku, Aku berharap satu hari nanti Keesaan Mu akan membawa ku pulang ke jalan yang benar dan diredhai... Pulangkan ku keimanan terhadap Dirimu... dan matikan aku didalam agama mu...

Seronok sungguh hati ini setelah 3 hari aku berpuase, terase ketenangan menjengah di hati... kesyukuran yang teramat ku panjatkn ke Illahi... Ditambah dengan kebahagiaan dapat berbuka dengan keluarga tercinta dan teman2 rapatku... gelak tawa dan kebahagiaan jelas terpancar di muka masing2 apabila dapat menikmati makanan yang lazat2 dan enak2 setelah sehari berpuasa...

Solat terawih pun tidak kurang menyeronokkan... especially bile pergi ngan kawan2... ade jer gelagat yang mencuit hati apepun yang penting ibadah kiteorg buat betul2 tau x lak main2 punya lo... tp yang x tahan tuh setiap kali gi sembahyang balik tuh ade jer bende yang kawan2 aku beli... jubah lah, kopiah lah, macam2... rase cam kt Mekah plak balik sembahyang jer shopping... hahaha...

Alrite that is all for now... dh nak buka dh nih... gotta go... ciao... adios... arrivederci... luv u all... :)

tiring week...

2010-07-30T01:13:00.000-07:00

OMG... it is almost like i cant stand to be even 1 more day in this week... it is reallly2 tiring... i have to go to classes, theater practice, assignments to be done, books to read for quizzes, debate class and millions and millions of works and problems to be solve...

it is reaching to the point that i need some time to myself, so u know what i did?... erm... i told the director that i have debate class and i cannot make it but instead of going to the debate class, i choose to go out with most recent best friend of mine, Alif... having some nice time together, u know chatting and having dinner together...

sometimes running from the reality life is not a bad idea after all... hehehe...

Audition...???

2010-07-24T19:57:00.001-07:00

erm... one of my friends call me yesterday she asked me to go for an audition for her production house... at first i thought what the heck??... lets do this... i love acting anyway... but as the times goes by, the hesitation start to strike... what if the talent in me is gone???... can it just go away like that??... what if my performance is bad?... cause gotta tell ya this friend of mine put kinda high hope for me to get the part... urgh!!!... besides, the fact that i've never go for an audition for about 2 years now is freakin me out...

it takes me hours to think straight again... to build back the confidence in me... i told myself that u know what, who give a damn... i'm just gonna go in for the audition n do the best that i can n who knows i might make my friend proud of me... besides, the last time i went for an audition, i've chosen from thousands of people... so lets just go for it stop being a pessamistic and the best thing is that lets being creative with whatever character that they throw at us...

so for now while waiting for the day lets just put my finger cross n pray for the best!!!... :)

Aku terlampau penat memikirkn dirimu...

2010-07-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

Aku terlalu penat memikirkn tentang kita berdua... engkau telah terlalu banyak berubah wahai cinta hati ku... entah kenape aku sepatutnye merase gembira kerana kau telah berubah ke arah yang lebih baik tapi apa kn daya aku merindui dirimu yang dulu...

Adakah aku seorang yang tamak jika aku ingin kn ko yang dulu?... seorang yang pernah ku cinta, seorang yang pernah dekat di dalam hati ku... kemesraan kita berdua sering terbayang di ingatanku... masih ku ingat layanan mu terhadap diriku... sungguh indah saat itu dan tidak akan ku lupakan sepanjang hayat ku...

Sudah cukup kau tikam hatiku ini dengan perubahan dirimu kau hiris lagi dengan satu kenyataan yang pedih... kau memberitahu ku tentang hadirnya orang yang istimewa dalam hati mu... hanya tuhan yang tahu betapa sakitnya hatiku mendengarkn kata2 itu keluar dari mulut mu... ya mungkin senyum ku nampak di luar tetapi rintihan di dalam biarlah aku simpan sendiri...

Harapanku untuk bersamamu kini musnah... Jika dulu kau berbicara tentang masa depan kita berdua namun kini segalanya hilang sekelip mata... wahai kekasih terpaksa ku katakan bahawa aku tidak lagi nampak akan masa depan kita berdua... aku berasa gusar dan risau namun aku hanya seorang insan biasa tiada apa yang dapat ku lakukan... aku tidak berkuasa untuk mengubah hati dan perasaan mu...

Cuma satu yang harus kau tahu wahai kekasih... aku akn sentiasa menyayangi mu x kira apa jua yang telah kau lakukan terhadap ku... walaupun pada satu masa nanti tatkala cintaku padamu telah padam tetapi ingatlah bahawa kasih sayang ku padamu akan sentiasa ku semat di dalam hatiku selamanya...

Wahai kekasih aku berjanji kepada diri ku mulai saat ini mulai hari ini aku akan cuba menjauhi diri mu... tidak lagi akan ku dekati dirimu... cuma satu harapan ku supaya engakau juga tidak dekati diri ku... cuma satu doa ku untuk mu semoga kau berbahgia dengan kehidupanmu...

Untuk K, tulus ikhlas dari hatiku...

cerita tentang kereta...

2010-05-07T10:14:00.000-07:00

alahamdulillah akhirnya kereta yang kuidamkan telah kumiliki kini hampir sebulan... seronok benar hatiku pada mula-mula aku dapat memegang steering kereta tuh dan bawa pergi jalan-jalan sekeliling kawasan perumahan aku...

minggu yang pertama kereta aku tuh tersadai jer kat rumah tak bergerak-gerak... minggu kedua barulah ianya mula untuk bergiat aktif... merata jugalah aku pergi... pergi daftar sem barulah... gi shopping lah... macam-macam lagilah...

minggu ketige, adelah minggu yang paling aktif untuk kereta aku tp bukan aktif ngan xtvt jer tp aktif gak ngan masalah... memule gi ke kelas... cam bisalah universiti tanah suci kesukaan satu rakyat malaysia nih, sekali pusing jer boleh kering minyak kete aku... bumper banyak ya rabbi... ape ko hingat aku isi minyak pakai air paip???... asyik tekan pedal jer lah keje aku...

pastuh masalah parking pulak... wahai pihak pengurusan universiti islam antarabangsa malaysia... tolonglah sediakan parking banyak2 untuk student anda... sila contohi universiti lain yang menyediakan berduyun2 tempat perking kereta... ape ko hingat nih sekolah menengah letak setakat 5 petak perking tepi jalan???... tuhlah masa nk buat universiti tak rancang betul2... tanah banyak tp habuk pun x dak... pastuh yg aku hangin nih... nk salahkn pelajar plak atas kesalahan sendiri... nk saman pelajar sebab bawa kete... hey grow up lah sikit... name pon universiti bukan sekolah pondok antarabangsa malaysia...

next, masalah nk mintak sticker... berulang alik lah aku pergi ke pejabat trafik uia n the clinic... tp yang nih kn aku x nk comment byklah sebabaku x penat sgt... nasib baik everything run smoothly... okie jer... cume penat sikit sebab kene berulang alik tuh jer lah...

just one last thing tentang bende2 bodoh adelah jalan utk kete... sgtlah teruknyer u'ols... tau tak ade jalan depan mahallah ali tuh to be spesific kn... membuatkn kete aku senang pancit jer... batu bata buat rumah dier taruk kat situ??... ade otakka dey... nk kate dh habis duit or budget aku rase universiti tuh kayo joh!!!... saman orang lagi... duit kerajaan lagi... x kn x cukup kut setakat nk taruk tar kat situ... ish3...

tp ade gak xtvt yang menarik yg aku lakukn bersame kereta aku cm gi mandi sungai, mandi kolam air panas... gi discover tempat2 makan best n macam2 lagilah... n some of the things i did it with people that i like n luv so much... i luv ya!!!... tp tuhlah aku memang nk cerite sangat pasal bende2 tuh but cm x larat jer... maybe next time aku cerite plak k... setakat ini sahajalah buat masa ini...

:)

coretan hatiku buat cinta...

2010-05-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

Cinta hentikan permainanmu terhadapku, aku tak sanggup lagi dipermainkan olehmu, kenape eangkau dtg lagi untuk menjengahku, aku tahu setiap kali kau manjengahku pasti akan ada kesakitan yang bakal mengundag... aku takut... aku risau... aku tidak mahu lagi rasa kepedihan dulu yang pernah aku rasai...

kini engkau datang dengan orang baru... orang yang telah menarik perhatianku... orang yang mungkin bakal ku cinta dan ku rindu... orang yang elok paras rupanya... orang yang baik juga budi perkertinya... walaupun jauh disudut hatiku ade bisikan yang mengatakan dia sanggup berkorban untuk ku tapi aku tahu bahawa itu semua tidak akan sama sekali berlaku...

Cinta tahu kah engkau bahawa menggeletar diriku ini disaat dia menyentuh diriku... tahukah engkau betape seronoknya hatiku ini bila ku melihat dia tertawa... betapa sengsara nya aku bila tak bersama dengannya... sikap ambil beratnya telah menawanku... senyuman manisnya telah mengikat ku... adakh engkau gembira sekarang wahai cinta??...

AARRGGGHHH!!!... nyah kau dari hati ku... cukuplah engkau menyeksaku... ingin ku buang kau dari hidupku... tapi persoalannya bagaimana???... bagaimana aku ingin melawan dirimu wahai cinta???... aku tidak sanggup berjauhan dari dia... aku tak sanggup lagi kehilangan dirinya... jadi bagaimana wahai cinta??... tunjukkanlah aku jalannya...

Cinta aku sudah puas menangis keranamu... aku sudah puas disakiti dan sekarang tidak lagi aku mahu hadapinye sekali lagi... kau buat aku kecewa... kau buat aku terluka tanpa akhirnya... jika ini membahgiakan mu aku redha wahai cinta tetapi satu pintaku padamu wahai cinta... hentikanlah semua drama... hentikanlah semua permainan mu... kerana aku insan yang lemah dan tidak lagi berdaya untuk melawan mu... bukan semalam... bukan hari ini... bukan esok... bukan selamanya...

Namun jika engkau ingin terus kekal dihatiku... kau tunjukkanlah kepada ku sinar kebahagiaan... kau sinarilah hatiku dengan kegembiraan... kau damaikanlah perasaan dengan senyumannya... kau penuhilah hatiku dengan cintanya... kau ikatlah aku dengan belaiannya... aku sedia menanti...

Titik Perubahan...

2009-12-12T09:18:00.000-08:00

Alhamdulillah adalah perkataan pertama yang terlintas di minda dan hati ini setelah akhirnya aku ditukarkan status dari seorang pelajar ekonomi kepada pelajar human sciences... terpancar jelas kegembiraan dimata ku ini... harapan ku selepas ini adalah untuk terus berusaha dan berjaya di dalam pelajaran yang telah aku pilih sendiri ini... ingin aku terus menggapai dan mengecapi kejayaan yang bakal mendatang dalam hidupku... tidak sekali aku mahu berada di bawah sana... dipandang hina... kerana kebodohan ku sendiri... sakit... perit... berada dibawah ingin ku lontarkan jauh2 dr hidupku ini... tidak mahu lagi aku menangis diatas kegagalan diriku sendiri... kerana ianya amat pedih untuk diterima hati yang pastinya dilukai, dinodai kata2 caci... mulai hari ini akan ku gagahkn kaki ku ini untuk mengorak langkah... satu persatu hingga ku mencapai tingkat yang tertinggi... tidak akan aku berhenti dan tidak akan ku sesali walaupun ianya tinggi nun disana hinggakn hilang di penglihatan mata... kerana ku tahu bahawa diatas sana ada keindahannya... kerana diatas sana cantik pemandangannya... dan apa yang lebih manis adalah, telah ku ketahui setiap langakahku ini diiringi doa yang pasti dari ibu yang ku cintai... bapa yang kusayangi dan adik yang ku kasihi...

ciao...

Something missing...

2009-07-24T09:27:00.000-07:00

Why???...
Why now you come back and haunting me,
Why you come when I finally have a strength to kick you out of my life,
Why your face appear in front of me again...

It is hard enough to forget you,
It is killing me inside,
Try to live each day regretting about what happen between us,
Try to survive with no memories of us together...

It is still fresh in my mind,
The day you left,
I felt like a corpse,
Only body without soul,
And you left me with a question, "What is missing between us?"

You want to know what is missing?,
It is you... I cant feel the present of you,
I cant feel the same touched you gave to me,
I cant feel your love when you kissed me,
I cant feel your heart near mine...

The only thing you left me are our memories,
The one that I tried to vanished,
Each and every second of my life since you are gone,
And it finally gone today...

Yes I hate you,
I don't want to talk to you,
I cant look into your eyes,
Cause you're my enemies,
Killing me slowly and turn me into dust...

What make me mad is that,
I can't do anything about it,
I'm helpless and I'm hopeless,
I don't know who I am anymore,
You change me since you came back...

I just want you to go and leave me alone,
So that I can put all the pieces of me back together,
So that I can have peace without you as my enemy,
And most importantly is that,
I'm me, myself again and have something to hope for...
Something to live for...

Hope

2009-07-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

I still remember that day,
Under the sky that is blue,
You asked me for a clue,
Why I gave my heart to you,
And my mouth started to tell the truth,
It is because in life there is hope,
And in my hope there is you,
But now that you're gone,
The hope of mine is also drown,
The memories of us are buried to the ground,
But that is not so hard,
Cause the hardest part,
Is that you and me will be separate apart...

Life

2009-04-01T10:15:00.000-07:00

Life,
No one said that it is eternally easy,
For some, the easy part come first,
And for some the part that they are waiting,
Come at the end of their journey

Life,
Is always in balance,
No matter when the easy part come,
There will always be happiness,
And there will also be sadness,

Life,
When it start with a mount of joy,
Where you see the journey as smooth as water running in the river,
Always ends with regression,
That never fade away even for a minute

Life,
For those who suffer at the end of their journey is very bitter,
If you look carefully in their eyes,
You can see the sadness and sorrowfulness that almost kill them,
And you can read their mind, you can find only one request left and that is "give me back my long gone happiness"

Life,
When it start with thousands obstacles,
Where some of them loose while trying to get through it,
Normally ends with a happy ever after,
That bring you almost a sky high of joy

Life,
For those who happy at the end is almost balance,
Whether it is a glimpse of success or a relief of the worried heart,
Is always sweet, and for them, if you look carefully in their eyes,
There will only be one wish for the feeling to stay

Life,
Contains the four basic elements in the journey of a human,
Love, Insecurity, Freaky and Entertaining,
The elements that can bring both of the positive and negative feelings,
But that is what makes it interesting

Life,
No matter how hard it is,
Accepting it is the best way,
It is specially design by Him to test the patience in our heart,
And how far we can react.

The Answer

2009-04-01T10:00:00.000-07:00

That night,
A very special night,
Almost everything seem to be so right,
Under the bright moonlight,
You insist to know what make me open my heart

No, not because you are pretty,
But maybe because of your sincerity,
Sincerity to be a loyal company to me,
Which I found quite bubbly,
A complete set to your personality

Your care for your family,
The price you put for your dignity,
An addition to your beauty,
But I know that it is not our destiny,
And we're never meant to be

Even though deleting you from my memory is damn hard,
But I just want you to know that my words come straight from my heart,
It's like playing a dart,
Aiming precisely on the middle part

All my words are true,
I hope this is the answer to the clue,
On why I always love you,
No matter what we have been through

Help me i'm having a bad sore troat!!!

2009-03-25T07:21:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, help me I hate having this sore troat... It hurt damn bad... It make my voice turn sexy more than ever...

Well maybe that is all for the day... Kinda tired and no mood to write anything...

Till my voice back to normal...

luv,
vogue

IIUM most influential blog update!!!

2009-03-21T11:52:00.000-07:00

To: those who really concern about Anisa Shurfa blog...

Here are some updates... To clear this messy thing, Anisa are willing to meet those who still have issues regarding her post of the drama thingy... This meeting/discussion/conference (whateva you call them), are mainly to end the war between her and the anonymouses... The meeting/discussion/conference will be control by Brother Shahrul Anuar and Mdm Rohani in case ambulance are needed... So to those who aware of this thingy, please read the details below:

Date: 24th March 2009

Time: 5.30 p.m

Venue: Evoke-i Cafe

Ciao... Adios... Arrivederci...

luv,
Vogue

We love you Miss Aliaa!!!

2009-03-20T00:06:00.002-07:00

Just wanna say sorry to what is happening to one of my beloved frenz... Who is also a student in the faculty of human sciences... The only that I wanna tell ya is someone who is really sweet and generous to most of her frenz... Our beloved, the one and only Miss Aliaa Nabila heart has been crushed and throw into a drain by her beloved...

I just hope that she will move on with her life and hopefully be as cheer as always... btw... there is a lot more guys in UIA wanna be ur boyfriend... don't worry k... Ala... Btw... you look hotter now since you dh single!!!... hahahaha... Just kidding gals!!....

What more can I say???... As a frenz we will always be there with you...

IIUM most popular blog recently...

2009-03-19T23:44:00.001-07:00

guys.. i mean UIA students... i heard this thingy about our beloved anisah shurfa blog... well... i staright away look at what is actually happening...

What I can actually say is that her blog rite now... rite here is the most popular blog of UIA students... wanna know why??... It is because of her comment on the drama night of BENL students which supposed to be an assignment for them... Yup... I can see that what she is trying to do is good... you know speak out her mind on the drama for improvements but to be honest the word she use for me is really unnecessary... it is rude, harsh and sum of them even too dramatic...

And the next thing I know is that there are almost 100 comments in her comments box... Sum agree with her and sum are not... The situation become more chaos when these people insert personal matters on their comments... You should read it... What more interesting is that it involved the lecturers from Nilai I guess... And of course the lecturer is actually her own sister which try to defend her sibling till death do us apart... hahaha... They are fighting each other even at 1 point i felt like i'm in Palestin rite now... Scary huh... It is so crazy man... I just hope in near future that this problem can be solve... It's no use to fight each other when you're actually don't know what you are fighting for...

Luv,
Vogue

The other world (preparation)

2009-03-15T19:32:00.000-07:00

Today, rightnow I feel very tired,
The tiredness that sucking my energy away,
The tiredness that emptying my bowl of emotion,
It didn't go away evenn if I tried damn hard to get rid of it.

It is weird to feel that suddenly,
I'm like a dead corpse,
Only bone and skin without heart and soul,
I keep asking why?, why? and why?
Then suddenly an answer crossed my mind,
Maybe I'm tired of this world,
The world that is full of hypocracy,
The world where you can get millions praises,
But not even single of them are meant.

This feeling, the one that is killing me right now,
Make me think for a while,
About the other world,
Where I heard peoples are regretting their sin,
It is so dark,
It is scary,
The world where peopleare screaming too loud,
Until you can barely hear that they're crying,
For a small hearted like me and you,
Of course we didn't wanna go there,
But we knew that one day, some how we'll be there.

Rationally speaking, we should stop worrying and start thinking,
What have we done,
to make sure that we're not regretting over our sin,
when we visit the other world.

Back to this world,
That blind folded us until we forget about our preparation for the other world,
The world that now and then still lying to us with billions of wealth,
The world that promise us with a glimse of power,
He world that is rule based on the name of so called "huminity",
Where killing is sacrifizing,
Where war is peace.

Yes, this world provide us with everything,
Power, money, and anything that come accrosed your mind,
But I want you, you, and you,
Together with me,
Let us takes a few minutes,
Stop for a while,
And think about a plan so that,
We will not be one of those wjo will regret over their own mistakes,
And to make sure that at least if we're screaming in the other world,
Our cry can still be heard.

p/s: this is my piece of mind... so feel free to command...

Fashionista Bag????...

2009-02-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

Hey guys look at my new bag that i just bought today... Can't help but to adore it... Keep looking at the bag... What do you think???... For my classmates dont worry i'll show it to you akk cause i'll bring it to class lol... New York City here we come baby...

xoxo,

luv,
vogue

THiS fEELiNg iS KiLLinG mE sLoWlY...

2009-02-03T00:07:00.000-08:00

Dear gossipers,

This feeling is killing me... the memories are killing me... the memories of me and her slowly emerge... It flashed many times on my mind... I feel scared... Scared to death to know that I might love her once again...

Yesterday, I saw her at lunch... She asked me to join her but I say no even though deep in my heart I know I want to say yes... but I guess sometimes no is millions times better than yes... I walked away and at night I've done something that I shouldn't do... I texted her again... It started with a simple how do you do?... Then the conversation went on and on... I only realize that I shouldn't done that... Why cant I stopped to love her?... Why I can't accept the reality that she is not for me?...

Maybe I should stop looking at her picture...
Maybe I should change my phones wallpaper...
Yup... Cause everytime I looked at her picture I always wonder...
Am I still in love with her?...
But I'm just a human... I'm not that strong to avoid her...
Why?... What happened to me?... What should I do?...
No... I don't scared to drown in the deepest ocean of love again...
But I absolutely don't want to fall from the highest mountain of hurt...
And killing my heart with the sharpest knife of rejection...
Help me... I'm loss in this desert of thought...

xoxo

luv,
Vogue

guys!!! pray for me!!!...

2009-01-30T20:27:00.000-08:00

hey guys pray for me... I'm gonna join the debate league in about 1/2 an hour... it's all about gaining experience and having fun but still there is hope inside me to win this thing... but whateva it is I'm gonna stay fantabulous lol!!!... wearing jeans for the first time in my life n wearing my furcoat... luv it... i thought of using the sunlasses but then asna told me that it is cloudy outside so i guess i need to cancel my sunglases thing... okie gotta go guys...

please pray for me lol!!!... huhuhu...

xoxo,

luv,
vogue

E-VoKe cAsHeR!!!

2009-01-27T00:06:00.000-08:00

HeY gUYs!!! not mUcH!!! JUsT wAnNa tElL Ya tHat sUm Of mY fReNz ToLd me ThAt tHE cAsHeR aT eVoKe CaFe iS DaMn buStArD!!!... THeY lUV to TeAse pEoPlE!!!... oKiE THaT Is So bIaTcH!!!... AnYthInG NeW tO tElL oR dIsCuSs jUsT cOmMeNt My pAgE...

rEfLeCtIoN oF mY hEaRt!!!...

2009-01-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

HeY GUys!!! NoT MuCh tO sHaRe tOday... mAyB A LiTtlE BiT abOuT thE ReFlEcTioN Of mY FeElInGs... HaVe yOu evER feLt liKe yOu WaNnA rUn FrOm SuMoNe BeCaUsE yOu stArTeD tO lOvE tHeM??... wElL i dO...

oKiE... lEt tHE StOrY bEgIn... I'M tAlKinG aBoUt a GiRl... thE oNe thAt I UsEd tO lOvEd... The oNe ThaT i uSeD tO fAnCIeD... THeN I tOLd HeR AbOuT MY FeeliNG AnD sHe rejEcT mE N TOlD mE ThaT ShE aLrEadY FiLl hEr HeARt wItH a NaMe wHiCh iS aLsO A fRIeNd oF mInE... SiNce THen wE'rE NoT taLkInG tO eACh OThER mUcH... MaYb A Few heLlO N Hi N tHAt's iT... thAt's aLl...

a fEW MoNThS lAteR i HeaRd FrOm OnE oF mY gIrLFriEnDs THaT sHe AlREaDy MeT sUmoNe wHo IS nOt MY fRiEnD n THeY alReaDy deClAReD thEmSeLvES As A cOuPlE... HeArtBrOKeN???... mAyB bUT TRiEd tO deNiEd It WiTh ThoUsaNdS oF aSsUmPTiOnS...
i TrY NoT tO See HeR AnYmoRe... nOT bEcaUsE i'm MAd At HeR oR hEArTBrOkeN i JusT dOnT liKe to IntErUPt HeR RElAtIoNsHip... bEsIdeS tHAt Is The OnlY WAy i CaN cUrE My hEArT...

aNd a FeW DaYs BaCk I MeT HeR aGAiN... n ShE tOlD me THaT nOw it Is Her tuRn tO FEeL tHe BRokEn HeArT... Her reLAtIOnShIp FaIlEd UNdER thE nAme Of CoMmiTmEnT... wE hAd SuM nIcE HeaRt tO hEArT ChaT reGArdInG HeR hEArT ThaT nEeDS tO bE cUrEd... n oN oNe EveNiNG We HaD oUr dInnEr tOgEthEr alOnG wItH A Few FrieNdS oF minE... wHilE chAttIng wiTh THeM i FElT sUmtHiNG Is NoT rItE N I nEeD tO lEaVe... YUp... I lEaVE iN tHE MiDDlE Of ThE CoNvErsAtIoN...

I dOnT ReaLly knOw WhY I LeFt ThE TaBlE tHAt EVeNiNg UNtiL i ReaLIsE thAt i'm SCaReD... I Felt So ScArED tHAt I WiLL fAlL iN lOve wItH HeR aGaIn... n I FElT SCarEd THaT mY hEArT WiLL gEt huRt aGaIn... iT iS sO hArD FOr mE To CuReD mY HeArT N i'm Not rEAdY tO TeaR it oNce aGAiN uNDer thE nAmE oF lOvE... n I tHiNk I dO wHat I nEeD tO dO... I kNOw ThAt It's GoNNa Be HaRd But i'm NoT rEaDy To geT HuRt...

"iT ToOk A mInuTe To FaLl In LoVe wItH yOu BuT iT tAkEs fOrEvER tO fOrGeT yOu"

xoXo,

lUV,
VOgUe

a pIeCe oF Me!!!! ReAd tHiS buStArD!!!

2009-01-22T22:51:00.000-08:00

HeY YoU GuYs WelL kInDa iN A BaD MoOd RItE NoW!!! wANnA know WhY??? CaUsE thErE iS tHiS FuCkInG shIt gUy wHo Is tRyInG to Mess wItH mY FreNzS...

jUsT WaNnA LeT Ya KnOw tHAT tHIs gUy i'm tALkInG ABoUt iS fUcKiNg HyPoCriTE LoL!!!...

HE'S AcTiNg lIkE HE'S thE mOst PiErS meN THaT GoD HAvE EvEr CrEaTeD bUt To be hOnEsT He iS So nOT...

I RaReLy mAkE My owN JUdGeMeNt n tO ProVe thIS you sHoULd rEaD HIS BlOg whiCh yOu HaVe to fInD iT bY YoUrSELf... LeT mE ASk YoU???... HoW cAn a pEOpLe WhO KnoW n PrAcTiCe thE TeAcHING Of IsLaM tAlK Bad aBoUT thEiR oWn bRoThEr ( As a mUsLiM I MeAN )... dOnT YoU KnOw tHaT Is OnE Of tHe BiGgEsT Sin... iT'S CaLlEd KiLlInG uR OwN BrOtHeR... i tHoUghT U kNoW ThIs... OOO... MaYbE YoU'Re Too pIeRS To kNoW ThIs...

tHe nExT tHiNg tHaT mAkEs Me mAd as hElL Is thAt tHiS buStArD Is QuEstIoNiNg aBoUt My FreNz relIgION... gUesS wHaT??... We MiGHt NoT bE aS PIeRs As yOu BuStArD BUT wE nEvA eVeR QuEsTiOnInG AbOuT THe rELiGiOn Of oThErS... ArE yOu sTuPiD EnOuGH tO UnDerSTaNd THaT thIs iS sErIoUs AnD SeNsItIvE ToPiC To oThERS... tO Be HoNeSt YoU ArE The mOsT StUpId pErSon I'Ve eVeR MeT iN mY WhOlE LIfE... oOoPpPsSs!!! SoRrY YoU ArE nOt thE OnlY OnE, ThErE aRe TwO MOrE... 1) ArIeL ShArOn... 2) aRiEl sHaRoN...

GuYs!! MaYbE YOu'lL bE SUrPrIse FoR wHaT I'Ll Be TeLlInG yoU... tHiS GuYs i'm tAlKiNg aBoUT Is So...sO....sO... NaRRoW MiNdEd lOl!!!... HaVe YoU EvEr HeArD thAt ReBoNdInG iS OnLy for GaLS beFoRe???... wHeN I SaY OnLy FoR gAlS AcCoRdInG To HiM, gUYs ArE PrOhIbItEd To reBoND tHEiR hAiR... wHAt THe hElL!!!!... THeRE ARE MiLLiOnS GUyS oUt ThErE wHo HaVe rEbOnDeD tHEiR hAiR... LoOk aT ChAcE CRoWfORd, zAcK efRoN AnD mAnY mOrE... CAnT YoU SeE It WiTh yOuR Own EyEs??... OoOpPpSsS... oNcE AgAiN I fOrGOt thAt yOu oNLy reAd bOoKS ThAT CoNtAiNs QuRaNiC aYaT iN iT... gOsH BuT i ThInK If Seen YoU rEaD mAGaZiNe BeFoRe... kIndA coNfUsE RiTe HeRe... caUse As lOnG As i KnOw iN thE mAgAZiNe THeRe Is thOuSAnDs OF "LaGHo" tHiNgs rItE???... sO AdMiT iT yOu'rE NoT ThAt pIeRs AreN't yOu...

OKeY nOW I HaVe To SpEaK mALay caUsE iT InVoLvES a loT Of MaLay WoRdS... AdE KeR dIeR kAtE kEnGkWn aku BaPoK kAt BlOg DiEr???.... lA ApE lA banGaNg SAnGaT kO nIh kAn mAkSuD pErKaTaAn bApoK yAnG kO gUNe TuH uNtuK mAnUSiA2 lelAkI yAnG bErPAkaIaN "DAN" bErPeTRaNgAi MaCaM pEreMpUaN... tuH lA kAtE bAnGAnG mArAh... pErNaH kEr ko NaMpAK KeNgkWn aKu PaKaI makE uP And PaKaI sKIrT AtAu bAJu2 ketAt??... x PeRnAh KaN???... So JaNgAn NaK sESukE hAtI jEr cAkAp OrAnG... MeNgsTereOTAiPKn oRg... ApE kO iNgAt KO baGuS kEr???... DaH MaChO sAnGAt DaH???... MAcAm GaNgsTeR KaMPuNg JeR aKu TengOk... aLa KaLo SetAKaT dUdUk Jer Uk tApI pEraNgAi n PiKIrAn CaM OrAnG yAnG tInGgAl kAt DaLaM hUTaN aMaZoN tUh bUAt aPer???... HAmPeH... AkU rAsEKn pEmIKiRan oRaNg AfRiKa yAnG mUnDuR tUh PoN LaGi MaJu DARi PiKiRaN Ko YaNg KoLOT tuh...

dArI PelAjARaN bAhAsA mELaYu kiTe bEraLiH Ke PelAJaRaN bAhAsA arAb pULa yEr... AlAmAk LuPe LaP lAK AkU nIh X PaNdAi bAhAsA aRaB cAm kO... Tp Kn KaLKo SeTaKAt PeRKaTaAn RiJaL tUh AkU tAu La lElAki... kToRg ( aKu N KeNgKWn AkU ) x LaH bOdOh sAnGaT... SemUa PaSs ArAb... SebAb Tu La kOt KToRg Dh MaSuK gOmBAk KaLo X MuNGkIn KaT nILaI lAGi... AkU X La bOdOh sEpErtI yAnG kO sAnKa MaMaT Oi So X pAyAh La sESuSAh nAk tuKaR pErKaTaAn MeLaYu TuH jAdI pErKaTaan ArAb AkU lEh PaHaM lA fUcKeR!!!...

Ha... sAtU lAgI... bUKaN lAnk MeNgUnGKiT tApI kwN aKu Dh ByK ToLonG KAU tP aPeR Ko BaLAs???... dEnGaN kUtUKan LaGi aDer lA.... aKu x TaU lA mAnuSiA jEnis aPeR kAu NiH... aPeR dIe ToLoNg TuH MaLaS lA nAk CakAp kO pIKiR lA SENdIrI... MAyB PeRToLOnGAn DiEr X lA seBesaR mANe pOn mAyB seBesaR zaRAH JeR tP bOLeH La DIaNggAp SebAGaI pErToLOnGaN... SeDiH AkU AdEr gaK MaNuSiA CAm ko ni...

DAh La AkU mAlAs nAk MeMbEBeL pEpAnjAnG... kEpAdE yAnG tErAse tUh SoRry K... tP pEpIKiR lA SEnDiRi GuNe OtAk yAnG TuHaN BAgI TuH YaNg SAmPaI kE mEnaRa GAdInG nIh UtK bErpIKiR kEsiLApAn DiRi KaU... kItEr SemUa SeSAmE MAnUSiA buAt SAlAh taPi PepAndAi La KiTe MeMpErBaIkINyEr ye... bAk KaTa Kau KAt BlOg TuH... aKu PuN naK mInTAk MaAf gak KaT TuhaN yAnG MaHa eSA KalAu akU AdEr TeRKuTuK KEr CiPtAaNyEr iTu LaH kEkURaNgAn AkU sEbAgAI InSAn CiPtAAnYer!!!...

" miStaKeS aRe MaDe BY HUMAN To Be CoRrEcTed"

xoxo

luv,

vOgUe

FuN.... FaNtAsTiC.... fAnTaBuLoUs....

2009-01-16T07:06:00.000-08:00

HI EvERyBoDy.... I'M BAcK!!!.... WeLl tHiS tImE I WaNnA TeLl yOu aBoUt tHe bEsT DaY HaPpEn iN My lIfE WhIcH hApPeN To bE tHe lAsT 2 DaYs... LaSt 2 dAyS I WeNt tO ThE PoEM sLaM aT ThE aNnExE... i tHoUgHt tHaT It'S GoNna bE SuCh a bOrEd xTvT bUt tHEn It tUrNs OuT To be OnE Of mY FaVoUrItE XtVt I'Ve eVeR dOnE In My WhOlE lIfe... tO bE HoNeSt WITh yOu I'Ve BeEn FoRcEd By OnE Of mY CuTeSt fRiEnd MiSS NAdAyA Al - HaBsHaI... weLL I ShOuLD tHaNx hEr fOr gIvInG mE SuCh a WoNdErfUl N RelAxfUl eVeNiNg HoWeVeR i WiSh thAt sHe cAn jusT cAsT aWaY ThE EnTrAnCe FeE tHAT ShE pAiD FoR ME ThaT EvEnInG... PlEaSE 3x NaDaYa.... oKIe HeRe arE sUm oF The phOtOs ThAt wE ToOk ThAt NiGhT...

uS HavInG a gReat TiMe At tHe PoEm SlaM...

FRoM LeFt : ShAqIlA, AlIaA, AsNa, sHaNa, mR. x, NaDaYa (sItTiNg dOWn), n

Me (StAnDiNg uP)

GuEsS WhIch iS MiNe... tHe biG OnE WiTh wAtCh iS MiSs nAdAyA HanD eVeRyOnE...yuP... I KNoW U knOw iT.... HuhUHuhU...

SaY WhAt??? : wHo aRe wE????

TO Be hOnest wItH U GuYs, I sTaRtEd tO FaLL In loVe WiTh tHe aNneXe... AlL tHiS Is yOuR FaUlt sHaQiLa... HuhUHuh.... ThAt nIgHt aFtER ThE So cAlLEd "slAM" FiNiShEd We eXcEpT fOr sHaNa N Mr X... dEcIdEd To hAvE OuR DiNneR aT "NAsI LeMaK AnTaRaBaNgSa" sTaLl In kAmPuNg BaRU... gOsH I FiNiShEd aBoUt 8 PaCkEt oF "NaSI LeMak"... wElL U'Ll CaN't BlAmE mE ThOuGh i'm So hUnGrY... alL Of uS hAvInG SuCH A nIcE AnD lAiD BAck coVeRsAtIoN... we'Re LaUgHiNg n scReAMiNg... lUv It sInCe thE lAsT TiMe i hAvE sUcH cOnVeRsatIoN ArE 2-3 mOnTHs baCk... aFtEr tHe NiCe anD FulL Of FaT DiNner, wE DEcIdEd tO HaVe sUm sLEeP BeFoRe wE GoT BaCK tO UiA ThE NeXt mOrNiNg SiNcE We'rE aLrEaDy LaTe n we'rE dEaD iF We aRe cAuGhT by the GrEeN MoNsTEr ( pAk guARD)... HuHuHu... AlL ThE GiRlS AcCePt fOr sHaQiLah dEcIdEd tO sTayEd At AlIaA HoUsE... WhILe mE N asNa HaVe tO FiGure SuMtHiNg Up...

YoU ThInK YoU HeArD enOuGh??... U'Re So wrOnG BaBe!!!...

LaTeR tHAT NiGhT, wHiLe Me n aSNa fIguRe SuMtHiNg uP, sUdDeNlY ThE WoRd "gEnTiNg HiGhLanDs CaMe aCrOSs OuR mInD" AnD sO We'Re oFf tO GeNtInG... So HaPpY... fUlL Of eNtHuSiAsM wE'rE SCrEAmInG aNd sInGiNg tO The hIgHeSt pItCh... iT WaS So Cold thAt NiGhT iN gEnTiNg... THe WiNd BlOw lIkE CrAzY... wHeN We rEaCh theRE Of coUrSe tHe ThEmE pArK Is ClOsEd, So wE dEcIdEd To fINd a cAr pArK n ToOk SuM pHoToS AS aDdItIoNs to OUr uNfOrGeTtAbLe mEMoRieS aLbUm... WELl u kNoW Me n aSnA We'lL AlWaYs GOt rEtArDeD If yOu pUt uS In A CAR WiTh FuLl FuEl iNsIdE It... huHuHu... We can eVeN gO To pEnAng IsLanD In 1 NiGhT iF wE WanT... huHuHu... StIlL REmEmBeR thE oThEr meMoRY Of OuRs BaCK In CFs nIlAi.... mE, aSnA, N nAbIl weNt To PuTRaJAyA WhIcH Is 40 mInuTes AwAy fRoM oUr NilAi CaMpUs jUsT tO TAkE pHoTos... OkIe... i KnOw tHAt pHoToS SpEak LoUdEr ThAn wOrdS... hEre aRe SuM PHoToS tHAt We tOoK tHaT NiGhT iN GentINg...

FlYInG AnGeL... WhO SaId AnGeL cAnT fLY...

thInKInG oF My fUtUrE???...

I'M FrEeZiNg bIaTcH...

thAt NiGhT wE DeciDeD To sLepT IN asNa cAr... n wE sTaTeD OuR JOuRnEY WenT bAcK tO uIa aT 6.30 a.M... aFteR PeRFoRmInG oUr SuBuH pRaYeR!!!...

i thInK thaT's AlL fOR noW... GoTta gO BiAtCH!!!...

"LUV TO BE LUV, NEED TO BE LUV"...

xOxO,

vOgUe

MY Career Test

2009-01-13T08:42:00.000-08:00

1. FINE ARTS	50
2. DESIGN	52
3. UNDERWRITERS - A person or firm engaged in the insurance business.	52
4. ART EDUCATION	54
5. REPORTERS AND CORRESPONDENTS	54
6. PURCHASING AGENTS AND MANAGERS	60
7. DENTISTRY	70
8. ART HISTORY AND APPRECIATION	78
9. RADIO / TELEVISION BROADCASTING	82
10. AGRICULTURAL BUSINESS	84
11. MARKETING AND DISTRIBUTION	86
12. APPLIED DESIGN / CRAFTS ( e.g. ceramics glass and jewelry)	86
13. FOOD AND BEVERAGE SERVICE OCCUPATIONS	88
14. VISUAL AND PERFORMING ARTS	94
15. SPEECH - DEBATE and FORENSICS	94
16. EMPLOYMENT INTERVIEWERS	100
17. AREA AND ETHNIC STUDIES	102
18. CONTRACT MANAGEMENT AND PROCUREMENT / PURCHASING	102
19. CINEMATOGRAPHY / FILM / VIDEO	112
20. SMALL BUSINESS MANAGEMENT	112
21. ART (e.g. painting drawing and sculpture)	114
22. INSURANCE SALES WORKERS	116
23. BARBERS - help people look neat and well-groomed	118
24. COMMERCIAL ART	118
25. URBAN STUDIES	122
26. WHOLESALE AND RETAIL BUYERS	128
27. MARKETING, ADVERTISING, and PUBLIC RELATIONS	132
28. WHOLESALE TRADE SALES WORKERS	134
29. FOREIGN LANGUAGES	138
30. ADVERTISING - The activity of attracting public attention to a product.	140
31. RETAILING AND SALES	142
32. PAINTERS AND PAPER HANGERS	146
33. PUBLIC AFFAIRS	146
34. TEXTILES AND CLOTHING	152
35. REAL ESTATE	154
36. Cooks and other Kitchen Workers	154
37. RESTAURANT AND FOOD SERVICE MANAGERS	156
38. ITALIAN LANGUAGE	160
39. RELIGION	166
40. OPTOMETRY (pre-optometry) - One who is trained and licensed to examine the eyes for visual defects.

tHe MoSt FeArful dAy iN mY lIfE!!!

2009-01-11T09:58:00.000-08:00

hEy ThErE y'aLL....

juiSt WAnnA teLl yA ThAt tOdAy is THe moSt FeaRfUI DaY oF mY LiFe!!!!.... THeRe Is BeLlA WhO oPeN mY FoLdEr WhItHoUt pErMisSiOn!!! AnD thERe Is ReNey WhO OPeN mY MeSsagEs WiThoUt I KnOw aBoUt It...

bEsIdEs ThAt i ToLd roZanA AbOUt thE MoSt ImPoRtAnT SecReT In My liFe... So guYs PLeAse DoNt ASk mE aBoUt thE sEcrEt... It's pErSoNnAl....

WhAt eLsE I WaNnA tElL yA???... OooO.... yA.... tOdaY MiMi mAkEs thE mOsT STuPiD THinG iN hIs LiFe... HoRrIbLe2 dReSs.... tHe moSt HoRriBlE DrEsS i'vE EvER SeeN iN my wHolE lIfE!!!... sToP it BiAtCh!!!!...

YoU Know wHaT AlL mY fREnZ GAvE mE mY NeW TiTLe : "thE SEx bIaTcH"... LuV it... THaNx guYs... y'alL gOt S.U.L.A (sWEaTY uPpEr LipS aLeRt) AnD nOt To FoRGeT The S.A.D ( sEAsOnAl aFfEcTed DiSeASe)... HeRE ArE tHe oTheR TiTLE gIVeN "the sLiMe BiAtCh" To MiMi N "ThE dRoUGHt biAtCh" to rOzAnA...

K GuYs THaT'S aLl fOr nOw...

cIaO... aDios... ArRiVeDerci...

XOXO,

VoGuE

LoNg TiMe nO HeaRd!!!

2008-11-26T18:51:00.000-08:00

hEy tHeRe eVeRyOnE,

ItS HaVe Been aGeS SiNcE ThE lAsT TiMe i poST SumTHiNg On My bLOg iSn't It??...
WeLl... i hAvE BeEN ThRoUgH mANY ThInGs lAtelY...

1) My HaNdPhOnE iS bRokE:
- wElL IT'S aLl HaPpEn a FeW wEEkS aGo... I jUsT gOt bAcK FRoM JoG aNd I fOrGoT to
taKe It oUt FrOm My poCkEt ThEn i StRaiGht aWay tHRoW mY pAnTs ThE oNe wItH
HaNdPhOnE INsIdE iT In A pAiL ContAINs abOut 100 ML waTeR in iT (weLl... NoT
ExaCtLy 100 ML)... JusT joKinG... HuHUhU...

2) mOvInG tO GoMbAk CaMpUs:
- i'm AboUT To MovE tO GoMbAk On ThiS 16TH dEc... hApPy???... nOt ReAlLy cAUsE
i DoN'T ReaLlY KNow WhaT tO cOmE... it's MorE To rELiEvE CauSe I dOn't HaVE tO GO
baCk to NiLaI ( the HELL of MaLaYsIa )... fOr ThOsE WhO hAveN'T sTAy TheRe, PlEAse
dOn'T EVeR tHInK aBOuT iT cAuSe It Is 'HELL HOT' guYs...

3) TrYiNg To loOsE mY WeIgHt:
- YuP... I'M tRyInG tO LoOsE My WeIgHT... FoR nOw i MeAn oN 27tH nOv, i'vE lOSt
mORe THaN 8 KgS AnD lEsS thAn 10 KgS... bUt THe ThIng iS I'M gEtTin bURnT...
yuP My SkIn iS a LoT mOrE dArKeR THaN EvEr... hAte iT bUt SaTiSfY cAuSe I TEnD
To LosT MoRe WEiGhT thAn I ExPecTeD...

4) mY fRiEnDs:
- mY FrENz mR. gLAm aRmaNi @ ASNA Is siCk RItE NoW... I HoPE hE wIlL gEt wElL
soOn... I wAnnA CoNGraTulATe hiM foR HIs SuCCeSfUll PeRsUatIon To HiS mOm
To BuY HiM a nEw CaR... aND nOT tO fORgEt mY dEAr fREnZ Mr PopULaR @ nAbIl
fOr hiS aCaDemIcS aChIeVEmEnT As thE bESt STuDEnT fOr huMAn SCiEnCes iN cFS...
HopEfUllY OnlY iN cFs caUsE i'm GoNNa SlAsHeD HiS nAmE fRoM thE bEsT sTUdEnTS
LIsT In GomBaK... hAhAhA ( jUsT KiddINg)... miSS nAbIL jGN mAraH yEr naNTi TUa
bAbY H x SukEr... ( hAhAHa )

5) bEiNg A NaNNy:
- dOn'T bElIevE???.. yOu ShOuLd... i ReALlY Am A NaNNy bUt NoT foR lOnG CaUsE My
neW MaId iS hERe AnD my SerViCE No lOngER nEedEd... buT it'S kINdA FuN ThoUgh
BeInG pAiD FOr nOt DoiNg AnYThInG acCePt CoOK aNd LooK FoR mY lil SIs...

i THinK thAt'S aLL fOr nOw i'll teLl Y'ALL LeTTer aBoUT WhAt's gOiNG oN in My LiFe...
DO cHecK mY BloG ouT nExT tImE FoR mOrE hOt SToRiEs noT oNLy AboUt mE buT aBOuT OTHerS thAt yOu MiGhT wAnnA kNOw AbOuT... cOmInG sOoN....

cIAo... adIOs... aRRiVedErcI...

XOXO,

Luv,
VoGuE

2008-06-11T09:06:00.000-07:00

12.05 am

hey, miss y'all alot... it has been along time isn't it since the last time i write on this blog... can't help it but i've been very busy lately...

basically today is a very bad day for me lol... i woke up early in the mornin for a reason which is to hangging out with all my room mates or should i say ex-room mates... but then while i'm on my way there they call me... oooopppppsss!!!! sorry i call them and they told me that the plan is cancel... damn!!!! shit!!!! bloodyhell!!!! oopppssss!!!! should i say sorry for my words???? i don't think so... guys (nas, farid, n etc...) i hate y'all... y'all should tell me earlier....

but thanks god, my mum is on leave today so i go shopping... the best thing that you can do when y're under depressed... hahaha... besides that what makes my day turn good is that today i ate sushi the best food ever invented by the asian... luv it lol... the taste and and the presentation are just cant be defined by words... you should taste it yourself...

what else did i do today???... i think that's all interesting to tell ya for rite now... erm... 1 more thing i bought new sandals and the other half of project fashion, the armany angels and prada princess... can't wit to read it... and tell y'all about it...

that's all for now i think... i'm actually tired of what's happening today... eventhough it's a rough day for me but i believe that what makes life bitter and sweet...

but this doesn't mean i forgive you guys ( my ex-room mates)... i'll revenge sumday... believe me... i will... hahahahahaha...

xoxo,

luv,

vogue

2008-03-26T06:04:00.000-07:00

8.45 pm

hey y'all... i'm back...
well today i finished my lovely and wonderful novel project fashion... besides this novel inspired me to create this blog...

the novel have 3 series which is gucci girls, armani angel and prada princess but i've only finished the gucci girl... the story is great i mean the way Oliver (the writer) manipulate the whole story is brilliant... you guys should go to the nearest bookstores now and find this book... believe me u'll neva regret lol...

now, let mw tell you a little bot about the story... the story revolve around three first year student of fashion design in a college... they are marina, a girl with nice blond hair nand as beautiful as marilyn monroe, Sinead, a girl from Dublin and the most edgy girl in da house, and we have Franklin, who has conservative attitude and the only girl who take jewellery design among those three...

besides a happy life, u know go to the club to dance "EVERY NIGHT", these three girls confront with thousands of problems in their life... Marina for examples, tried almost every flirt techniques that she know to get the guy of her dream but he never realize it... Sinead confront with thousands of problems and if i'm in her shoes i'll probably kill my self... she's having problem's with her boyfriend, with her mom love relationships, with the house that they stay and with the most pervert girl in the college, Suzy... Frankie seems to have problems regarding her feelings because she's actually fall in love with Sinead boyfriend and also her study in the early chapter of the story...

interesting huh??? so what are you waiting for i advice you to find this novel and read it...

Besides finished my novel today i tried the other new recipe which i got from the other day... this time it works... the taste is fantastic the taste of the banana and the chocolate mixed together just make me crazy...

that's all for now... i'll write to y'all tomorrow for my new experiences gain...

gotta go in a flash....

cau...adios...arrivederci...

xoxo

luv,
vogue

2008-03-25T08:25:00.000-07:00

8.45 pm

hey y'all...!!! i'm so tired rite now n mayb i'm not gonna write so much today...

just got back from a supermarket to buy some groceries, as my father is not here i have to carry
all the groceries... kinda tired isn't it??? what did i bought??? well i bought creamy milk, capsicum, virgin olive oil, and many more... well... today i tried some new recipe which i took from astro travel and living channel... it's an italian recipe... i dont know what's wrong with the recipe cause for me it didn't work... mayb the excessiveness of the lemon make it feel wrong...
erm... better luck next time...

what else interesting today???... well nothing much i think staying at home, collecting some recipe, go to the supermarket, tried the recipe and complaining about it over here... that's the end of the day i guess...

well i hope i'll have more interesting things to tell you tomorrow...

cau...adios...arrivederci...

xoxo

luv,
vogue

2008-03-24T17:42:00.000-07:00

8.45 am

hey guys!!! it's shock to know that i woke this early huh???

well like i told u yesterday my life is getting boring these days...

so i decided to wrote sumthing on this blog...

yesterday, i told you about the girls that i LOVE but today i would like to tell you about another girls which i LIKE...

well this girl i know just after i move from KMP!!!...

her name??? well i called her fiera... she's a beautiful girl with a very cheerful attitude...

which what makes me like her... but 1 thing i have to admit that the way she walk is awful...

sorry fiera if u read this but i gotta tell the truth... it's not like she has the worst walk ever!!!

it's just that she need to learn how to walk in a feminine way...

well this girls i'm talking about actually is what i called the bounce girl...

wanna know why??? well after i move to iium to be spesific i thought that i need another

girl to replace diya in my heart so i tried to approached her... u know when u're away

from sumone that you love u started to miss them, especially when they dont even

have time to reply ur messages cause they're busy studying... so i approached her until the

end of my semester 1 in iium... for ur information i'm not only approached her i also

propose her to be my girlfriends and she turn off my proposal...

when she turn away my proposal that is when i realize that she's not the girl i love

she's only my bouncing girls cause when u're turn off by sumone else, u should

felt broken hearted right but for me in this case, i dont felt anything...

infact i'm so glad that she turn off my proposal because she make me realize that

my love is only for diya and it will never change, it growing everyday... and i know

even if fiera accept my proposal i know that it's neva gonna work because diya is still in

my heart...

Diya will always be here in my heart, in a special place and will never be erase...

i love you, diya...

i think that's all for now... i'll write more later...

cau... adios... arrivederci...

xoxo

luv,
vogue

2008-03-24T05:44:00.000-07:00

8.45 pm

Hey, everyone out there. Okay, so how come i'm not out partying? I know, it sucks. But what to do i'll always stuck in my own house....

Today I found out that holidays is suck... it's annoyed me a lot lol.... dunno what to do...
It change my lifestyles a bit... except shopping, watching tv, and cooking i got nothing else to do...

But recently, sumthing interesting happen the girls that i love so much send me messages...
i'm so happy... why i'm happy???? well obviously it's show that she still remember me... it's mean a lot lol... since i used and still love her rite now...

Besides, she still keep the prize that i gave her on 2008 valentine's day...
She also told me that she'll never gonna throw it.... nice isn't it????

hurm... about all the poem that i send to her... she always told me that they are so sweet...
as sweet as her self i guess... hehehe

i kept talking about this girl... but i think you neva know her aren't you????

so let me tell u a little bit about her...

she's a real sweet gals... i know her when i was in kmp... people call her as diya well so do i...
erm.... what else??? i like her because she's sweet, kind, and she can except people as the way they are... a months with her means a lot to me... we lunch together, we dine together and almost everything i do i do it with her.... i still remember the last time i met her and my last present for her before i left her.... it's a butterfly necklace... talking about her makes me wanna cry.... but whatever it is our memory together will always stay in my heart...

i thinks that enough for today see y'all next time k....
dont forget to comment my blog and just leave me your advice if you think i need it k...

cau...adios...arrivederci...

xoxo...

luv,
vogue