Nervous and AJL!!!

Owh God am so scared to hell since tomorrow is gonna be the result day!! Seriously I don't think that am gonna make it for one of the subject... Tho it is only contribute 0.5 GPA but am still scared to hell cause I don't want my education loan to be cancelled just because of that... I thought it is gonna be today actually, I mean the result but when my frenz told me that it is tomorrow I gotta say that it makes me more nervous cause another day of suffer will come ahead and u know it well that I hate to suffer!!!

Alright here is my short review about Anugerah Juara Lau (AJL) that is happening yesterday... To those who don't know AJL is basically like the biggest award for all the musician in our country to choose the best song of the year... Yup, it is a yearly show... Huhuhuhu... Or in other word it is a Grammy award for Malaysian musician except for the singer need to sing live and the judgement will be done based on their performance that day...

So enough with the babbling... Okay honestly, I hate Hafiz with his song Awan Nano, I don't get the song and it is such an ear sore... I don't know why the hell he won the best song of the year... Not to mention his performance yesterday is so freaking cheap man... U don't have to actually put on a t-shirt and a track suit to show that you are poor... For me it is cliché and annoying... The teary drama while performing is so 10 million years ago... Come on man this is 2012!! Who do that...

I actually hoping for Beribu Sesalan by the 3 Diva, Yuna with her song Penakut or at least Kisah Hati by Alia to win the award... Except for Beribu Sesalan as the 1st runner up and Kisah Hati as the best performances none of the other songs deserve the award that they won... Tho I do admit that Beribe Sesalan performances is a little bit boring cause the stage is too empty for me... They should have put the dancer or something on the stage...

Talking about the vocal of the singers as a whole, I can say that they tried their best but I know and am so sure that they can actually do better than what they did... I expect Jaclyn Victor to win the vocal but once again my hope is crushed by the stupid Hafiz... But I got to admit that Hafiz vocal is also one of the best yesterday...

But one thing that am so relief about is that Najwa Latif with her song Cinta Muka Buku or translated as Facebook Love... Such an immature and stupid song I've ever heard in my whole life and I truly believe that only little children obsess with the song...

After all it is a good show... I love the tribute to Sudirman... One of the greatest entertainer in our country... If you're Malaysian and never heard about Sudirman you're definitely an imbecile... Muahahaha!!!.... I almost cried listening to the Salam Terakhir song... Okie I guess that is all for now... my hand started to hurt and my lappy battery is already low... Until my next post... Love you guys... take care... Wear seat belt if you're driving... HAHAHAHA!!!... :)

My soul of life!!

Today I'm happy...

Yesterday there was full of joy...

The other day I was blessed...

It has been more than a month now...

God give me another angel in my life...



She is just an angel...

I never know that she is...

Until I heard, she laugh...

The way she laugh is just perfection...

Full of joy and giggle just like a baby...



I still remember that moment...

The first time I met her...

I thought that she is a hater...

The way she stared, the way she glance...

Just killing the love inside of me...



But I make a mistake...

I admit it...

She is just breath taking...

Once you start to know her...

Believe me it is hard not to love her...





Her cute face is one in a million...

Her attitude never failed to make me smile...

Her confidence always creates jokes...

Her smiles always light up the room...

Her words comforts me...



She is still a kid...

Fragile, innocent and sweet...

Always make me feel like protecting her...

From the danger of my own spesies...

Or any violent of the world...



Some people say that I'm over protective..

But I'm truthfully think I'm not...

Cause people rarely understand...

How important she is to me...

Unless I tell them that she is the soul of my life...



I can't afford to have her...

I know that she deserve a better keeper...

And simply because she have the right to live happily...

But I'm scared to let her free...

Because she is now apart of me...



I don't know what to do...

I don't have any plan...

But one thing for sure, I will loose her in the future...

Until she find her knight and shining armour...

Just let me take a good care of her...

have fun?? yeah right...

owhkie people maybe it is quiet late to talk about yesterday, but why do i need to give a damn rite??.... So I slept at 4 in the morning n it really piss me off cause the next day I really have to wake up early... 4 hours of sleep really not enough for me... So I woke around 8 in the morning n have to drive my little sister all the way to Shah Alam town to sent her to the tuition center...

I tried so hard to open my eyes, n the worst thing was my mum keep wanting to chat with me for 2 hours long while am in the middle of surviving my sleepy day... Then we went back home I have to start cooking lunch... I cooked Nasi Ayam together with my mum... Right, "Family Bonding" time when I don't need it at all...

The rest of the day I still can't close my eyes so I go online and watching TV's... way to pass time... At night I missed smoking so much so I decided o go to my cousin house where I can almost feel free to do anything I want... I smoke, gossiping about our family crisis... Owh u really don't want me to start on this because it a very long story... It even take ages to finish... There are a lot of things happen lately... DRAMASSSSS ALERT!!!.... Now at this hour my cousin already went to bed n am stuck again in front of the TV n this stupid lappy... I started to think that am an insomniac... Which is not a good thing!!! cause I don't want to have my wrinkle at this early age... Owh scary cause I have to start consider about having a botox injection or sumthing while the fact is am broke rite now... Well not literally acually, it is only me... My mum is no way closer to MC Hammer broke people!!!... No worries!!! Okie now am kinda tired of typing so am going to sign off for now guys!!! Till later... Ciao!! Adios!! Arrivederci!!... :)

::HaPPy::

Yeay at last am one freaking happy boy... Now the internet connection in my house is good and most importantly I can get connected to my FB and Youtube... Seriously am fucking damn happy that if u can see my face right now u will definitely see my yellow-ish teeth... Muahahaha...

Now I can get connected and chat with my frenz am feeling like post sumthing on each of my frenz wall... But who am I lying with my laziness it will never in a million years to happen...

Am trying to finish the novel that I told u guys before, Rite now am only on the chapter twelve... So far the storyline is damn good... It almost like watching a drama... Am eager to continue my reading cause I wanna know what happen next... Cecelia really know how to attract readers attention...

Let me tell y'all a bit about the storyline... So basically the story is about this girl, name Lucy, she is basically try to start her new life cause she just broke up with her long te boyfriend who happen to be a TV personality... But somewhere along her life journey, she can't actually cope with her new life and her family, write a letter to a company which their main business is to do what we called as "LIFE INTERVENTION"... Hopefully, U heard about it before... Anyway to cut the story short, she is being forced to g to the company and meet with her LIFE... which happen to be a handsome young man... There are a lot more dramaSSS that is going on in this novel... The one that happen in her family, office even in her love life... It is truely a great novel... U guys should buy this novel... Seriously, it is totally worth it!!!....

Apart from that, I can't wait to color my little sister hair tomorrow... I bought the hair colorant just now... Just wait for a suitable time to apply it... Hopefully tomorrow... My lil sis is going brunette tomorrow... Anyway I bought REVLON COLOR SILK and the color is light brown... Hopefully it will look great on her... Owh U know me, am a hair color freak... I changed my hair color almost every 2 months from red to blond to brunette... I've tried almost every color but the one that I love the most is Light Golden Brown... I rarely do it at home cause I can't take the risk of it to look bad cause am colorit myself... Always2 go to salon but since this time around I'm gonna do it on my little sister hair so I decided to do it by my own... It is nice U know to have that feeling being a hair dresser once in a while... huhuhu... I guess this is all for now... Until then... SO LOOOOOOOOOONG!!! :p

Piss Off!!

Alright people, I'm really piss off again... I know that some of you might get enough of my piss off story again but I just gotta say this... A few weeks back I had problem with my internet connection but this time around when the connection is definitely fine, I got a big problem to open my facebook and other social networking sites... I don't know why but somehow every time I try to log into my facebook, this some sort of 'Block Domain' sites keep coming up... I don't know what to do... Anyone can actually give me the solution to this problem??...

Owh anyway I cooked again today after about 5 months of enjoying myself of dining in a restaurant or somebody else cooked for me... I had fun in the kitchen... It remind me to all the fun that I miss all this long... I cooked 'lemak tempoyak usus and rebung', to those who don't know it is actually a malay dishes that is yellow in color and quiet spicy too... Besides this fantastic dish, I guess cause I never eat usus before... muahahaha... I also cooked 'Kubis Goreng' and 'Telur Sambal'...

I'm actually counting the day for me to go back to my uni and have my happy life back... It has been about 2 weeks now am staying at home doing nothing, I have another week to go... But the nervous part of all is my last semester result... Eventually it will come out next week which am so nervous about and am hoping that my pointer will exceed 3.5 this time cause my mum promise me an iPad or samsung galaxy tab for it...

Next am thinking to color my little sister hair since I can't color mine... Am bald now remember??... Am thinking of dark blond or maybe brunette with the mixture of red-ish in it or maybe burgundy... Can't make my mind up yet... But am definitely gonna do it...

Owh one more thing, I don't know why but recently I can't eat so much seafood... It cause my feet to get hurt... I pray to God that it is not one of those major diseases... I don't wanna say what it is... You can guess it urself... U know, those disease that you cannot eat this and that cause ur uric acid is too high... My dad got it so my mum told me to better be careful and start to watch my daily diet... Hurm... another problem... hope can get through it this time...

At last... time to re-connect...

Bullshit!!! Alright guys no worries am not mad at anybody here just a way for me to thanks my internet connection in my home sweet home that never ever stable... its okie for the first 2 seconds and then it started to go wrong again!!! UURRGGHH!!!

Anyway am currently in Port Dickson... trying to have the best of time with my family!! Dummies alert!!... Yup a family vaca... U might think that am a lame person rite now!! As much as I try to avoid the word lame in my life but this time I have to admit!! Yup am a little bit lame when it come to holiday season... It almost like am lost all my socialite status at once... No VIPs passes to the night club... no hangging out with friends... no nothing...

Anyway just to tell u guys, last 2 days I went to KRU studios... am "escorting" my friend for an interview as the assistant producer... am not really sure if escorting is the right word to be used here... but who cares right??... I don't give a damn... and am freaking sure that u shouldn't too... It was a fun day for me... cause it is that moment where you feel relief and u suddenly feel like u can now gasping for air cause u can feel that moment again... where u chat, laugh, hang out, n chill with ur friends after a few days of sleeping, eating, watching tv's n do all the chores or in a simple word NO LIFE AT ALL!!... U should see my face it is almost look like a kid got his MCD's happy meal... That happy face with a big smile on it...

Okie let me tell you a little bit about my journey yesterday, on my way to PD... I was force by my mum to chat with my dad which i got to tell you it happens really once i a zillion years... It is not that I don't wanna talk to him, it is just that with no reason I stopped talking to him since I am 13... n to tell you honestly, i got no common interest to even start the conversation with... Owh am forgot to tell you that my mum forced me to open my mouth and have a "friendly" chat with my dad to avoid my dad from sleeping cause he is the one who is driving n he will never ever let me drive a car if he is in it... He just don't trust me that much!!!... Okie... moving on... after a half an hour of silence at last we found our common ground... N the topic is really2 interesting... Don't believe me??... We ACTUALLY talked ABOUT "dogs".... Can u believe that??... Dogs... hahahah...

Anyway gotta go for now... gotta pray before my mum make any noise... see ya later!!... :P

Still alive!!!

It has been a few hours since the last time I posted something on this page... Am still on my couch, doing nothing, and watching tv... Yup... my life suck!!! still doing nothing... however can't wait for the weekends to come cause am going to a beach yaw!!... Am leaving probably on friday... cant recall what my mum told me... it is her plan anyway...

Woot2!! Bitches on the beach... huhuhu... anyway my macaroni cheese turns out good... The macaroni is so soft, and the cheese melt in my mouth... Urghh!!! love that feeling... and then a glass of fresh grape juice is just so refreshing!!!

For tonite am going to try my best to eat less and if possible only eat steamed fish with just a bit of rice of maybe a bowl of noodle soup... Still on my diet plan people!!... yeehaa!!!...

Owh I want to smoke so much but it seems like I have to distract myself as much as possible not to thinking bout it since am at my home sweet home where the law of no smoking somehow still be used... Until then... Ciao!!!

SEX!!

Let me tell u guys sumthing about it... urgh!!! u know when u imagine that it will be great, sexy, sensual n everything??... I mean before u did it... the reality is not that fun yaw!!!

Believe me, especially to all the first timers, that it will be awkward as hell!!! U don't know what to do, how to do it, plus u're nervous and ur adrenalin level start to pumping up... all these add together u practically feeling like u'll be dead in a few moment... Huhuhu...

Owh don't let me start on the feeling of regret later on... U'll feel like fuck what have I done... am not suppose to do this!!!... U'll sleep with the feeling of regret and everything...

However, there are one thing that I don't really get about doing it is that u keep want for more... Just do it for twice, believe me u'll feel like u can't stop anymore... talking from experience MUCH!!... huhuhu...

Remember I talked about the things that I don't proud of... This is one of them yaw!!!... Done it for many times now but still ain't understand the significant of it...

But MAYBE... just MAYBE... if u're doing it with ur love fun it will give u different meaning to it... so what am trying to say over here is that until that day... until u find someone special in ur life,DON'T DO IT!!... yes am WARNING u guys especially all the VIRGIN out there... Be proud that you're preserving things that proven not so many people can keep for long... I want u guys to know that am talking from the bottom of my heart now and starting from now on am never gonna hide anything again from u guys... I will tell all the truth whether it is for better or for worse...

Ciao... Adios... Arrivederci for now... :P

OMG!!! please am frakin damn bored!!!

OK... it is the starting of my three weeks boring adventures... seriously freaking damn bored that I can write the whole day on this page... This upcoming three weeks for me means no party, no smoking n no to everything...

Start to miss my college life and friends now... Owh anyway just to tell u guys that yesterday I went bald... The first time ever... n to tell u guys that at first it is kinda scary, feeling a little bit nervous but after a few minutes my head being completely shaved am started to like it...

It really enhanced my features... loving it yaw!!! But let me tell you one thing about myself I can rock anything and any look... throw any styles at me am gonna rock it baby!!! that is how high my confident level is... muahahaha!!!

WOW!! talking to u guys really give me ideas what to do for my three weeks holiday... Alright first thing first, DING!! DING!! DING!!... am gonna put some weight... lets try to diet... how bout that!!!

secondly, am gonna grow some more hair on my bald head!!! of course I dont wanna look bald registering myself next semester... no matter how much am loving it, it is some sort of out of fashion...

Thirdly, let me try to finish the novel that I bought like a month ago... I haven't read anything yet since am too focus on my final examination... The novel is a new one from Cecelia Ahern, it is called the time of my life... Lets try to read it tonite aite? before am gonna sleep... dont worry guys am gonna tewll u guys more bout the novel later on k!!!...

For now am feeling so lazy so lets just watch TV and eat a SMALL!! might I remind u guys a SMALL bowl of macaroni cheese... :)

2 years have past!!!

Hello people it has been more than a year now and my life have change a lot... But I guess this is why it called life... Take 2 minutes to stop doing everything and look all around you, everything will change and move so quickly...

Along with all my one year changes, there are millions of it that I'm not proud of. I'm a SINFUL SLUT! now... looking at all my friends, most of them already getting married, building up family, working with big pay check and moving forward to become a better person whereas I'm still stuck here in this own world of mine studying and learning more about life each day!!!...

To tell you the truth I have thousands of people come and go in my life and I miss all of them... tho some of them end up their relationship badly with me but only one thing strike in my mind every time i missed them is that they you to loved me and they used to bring colors to my life...

There are times that I'm scared with my lifestyles now... It is too bad to be considered as a normal being life... I'm not a GOODY2 BITCH anymore... I had so much fun but not in a good way... I don't know where my life is heading to but I pray to God that it will lead me to a good place... Lets wait and see... But 1 thing for sure, I never ever regret all this SINFUL THINGS! I have done cause it teaches me everything in life... that LIFE is NOT as EASY as you thought and in all the beautiful colors of life there are BLACK that is look interesting and unique but too DARK that it can erase all the other colors!!!